Terima kasih~.

I am thankful for my life.

I've always wanted and hope for peace,being blissfully happy with my loves ones.

I'm a simple person who's happy with simple things.

I dont need highly sought branded stuff as most girls or ladies alike wishes for.

I'm happy with mixing my dress sense from ThisFashion or any budget store around.

To me, why go for high value products when u only use it at most 2 months, then you'll itch for a newer item. You waste money then you think you get back what you lost by reselling it.I just find it, troublesome and the money (if you managed to sell it) is lower.

For me, it's better i buy clothes that are worth the value not too steep as i know soon i'll melt for a newer design so i dont see the need to spend too much. Long lasting items, yes, me and husband will splurge.

Today, i'm happy i got a kebaya nyonya at the Geylang baazar. Prior to that, i send my nikah hantaran baju for alteration. I was less chubby during wedding. Now 6mths being Mrs Enell, i've put on WEIGHT. I love my chubby cheeks but i detest the fats on the belly and thighs. THe butt is high too.. Tak suka lah!!!

Oh ok my baju's story.. After sending the baju to RH, i walk around and in less than 30mins, i got myself a lace baju. Love it as i can mix and match it. Told Mum and dad wanted to get myself a kebaya nyonya and indeed i did! Dad loves to jalan at baazar geylang. in fact he loves jalan-jalan where there's a crowd. Mum also the same. I dont really fancy the baazar as it is so pening with lots of people. And poor husband was down with flu. HAte to see him with that as he will get a bit agitated with the flu and i dont dare to talk to as he will hate it that he cannot layan me as good as norm due to the flu..

We break fast in the car.

Initially the plan was to drive to mum's home in time for buka.But cari-cari my nyonya kebaya and its ten minute to break fast. Poor husband kan middle of buka he needs to drive. I suggest we break fast in the car. After about ten minutes, we buka then i thought of sitting by the pavement to eat the snacks abah bought.It brought back memories of impromptu breaking fast when i was small and during teens together with fav cuzzin.It was fun, and memorable.

I'm happy as saturday i spent time with the in-law side. With MIL being a chef, cooking a feast for those who came. I'm happy i get to help out pre and post the feast.

I'm happy on sunday i spent time with my mum and abah.I miss them a lot. Though now i'm a wife, i still want to be daughter to them. I'm happy i can haf a fair timetable shuttling between my parent, in-law and mostly husband.

I'm doing this as i want to have as much time with all my love ones while i can or while they are still around. Not to be hanging on memories on them when they are away. Or regreting not to be able to hug and kiss them when i can.

Reading news on sudden death, or man who passed on at age of 50+ makes me shivers... i cannot imagine how i would react if it's my dearest dad or mum passing on, as they are no longer young. Visiting them weekly makes me always looking at them when they are unaware how aged they are. especially my dad. He used to have a belly now he's more slim and i can see his bones but he is still tough helping mum carrying her so heavy marketting items. Each time i look at them, i cant believe that i've grown and is taking a place on earth on my own and soon they will leave me.

Yes, im crying when im typing this. Outside, i dont show my emotions. Normally i do it alone.

Now husband is peacefully sleeping and i'm wiping away my tears as i dont wish him to be awake and ask me why im crying.He dont like to see me crying and he has vowed to always make me happy and never have to cry when he is by my side..

I thank Allah for giving me happiness after what i had gone through half my life.

I really hope Allah will extend this happiness for as long as He allows to..